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Sunday, January 12, 2014

Laikipia

In the beautiful season of having my entire family together for the space of 12 days of Christmas (literally), I have neglected this space.  7 of those were work days but 5 were not, and we packed up the Landrover and headed to Laikipia.  Laikipia is the general area of a high plateau west of Mt. Kenya rich in wildlife where European ranchers established vast tracts in the last century.  Several have turned those into private game reserves, and the towns carry a wild-west quirky colonial flavor amidst the African dukas and pickis.  Laikipia is also, it turns out, a ridiculously over-priced vacation destination.  When I started planning our five-night safari over a month ago, I first had dreams of reaching Lake Turkana and the real North.  I soon realized we would be on the move every day, camping or scrambling for accommodation at a new place every night.  That did not seem like a good use of our non-work relational time with our kids (though car trips can be pretty memorable).  So I opted to halt our northward trek in the Laikipia region. (note the pictures below are nearly all Luke's, who is an excellent photographer in a family of creative photographers).








For the first two nights we camped in Ol Pejeta (http://www.olpejetaconservancy.org/) which, while pricy (the campsite booking fee we paid ahead was about $80, for six people for two nights that was fine . . but it turned out we had to pay additional daily camping and park fees on entry), does give value.  It is a 90,000 acre ranch that is now managed in a way to showcase the combination of cattle ranching, tourism, and wildlife preservation.  We booked a private campsite, Murera Donga, which is our family tradition after years of campsite 2 at QENP in Uganda.  Just us, tents, a campfire, and the savannah.  We could watch waterbuck and impala and baboons and birds from our tentflaps, and a few of us caught a glimpse of lions retreating as we pulled up.  No people, only stars and smoke.  Lovely.  In the morning there was a spectacularly clear view of Mt. Kenya to our east.  We went on game drives which were also practice-driving-drives for teens.  We cooked good meals, read books, and rested.  We saw rhinos and visited the chimp sanctuary, watched the sunset and talked. It was glorious.

Night three we drove to Timau, after lunch at Dorman's in Nanyuki.  Timau is less than an hour north.  I had booked the Timau River Lodge (http://timauriverlodge.com/) as one of the few affordable places we could stay in a bed and get a hot shower between two two-night camping stretches. This place was, shall we say, unique.  I loved the eccentricity of the scattering of cabins, wandering geese and peacocks, a zip line, dogs, rabbits, secluded waterfall, short hiking paths, and a tiny plank bench located up the hill with another stunning Mt. Kenya view.  The management is Indian and we had decent but not spectacular Indian food for dinner.  The cabins are rustic-unfinished logs, sort of dusty and musty and tacky decor.  But good space for a fair price, and for younger kids the playground/animal aspect would be even more fun.  We were all so tired after two nights on the ground that we slept well.


Nights four and five we drove another hour or two north and slightly west into the Mukogodo forest, which is managed by four Maasai communities.  I found the contacts via the Laikipia tourism web site here:  http://laikipiatourism.com/camp-sites.  The directions were a bit vague, drive past this police post, go through this gate, etc.  We sent Luke out to chat with Maasai herders a couple of times and they kept pointing us onward.  Which turned out well, for though we did not find the campsite we had booked, we found a spectacular one run by the same group.  When we drove through the forest and piled out of the car, Luke explored a path and came running back to say he'd found the best view in all of Kenya.  We set up our tents in a clearing of thick soft grass at the foot of a rock kopje. But we spent most of the day sitting on the rock cliff under a fig tree, reading and picnicking with a hundred-km 180-degree view to the north.  The forest dropped away to dusty plains, distant mountains (the Matthews range) and a winding river. A constant wind updraft worked like air conditioning.  One day we also took a hike through the forest to another ridge-top viewpoint.  The campsite was truly spectacular. It also happened to be the home of a leopard who was none to pleased with our presence and spent the night prowling the perimeter with his low menacing coughing growl.  The Maasai group insisted on sending us an man armed with a large gun to guard us at night.  I think I was more worried about his gun than the leopard.





A year ago we had made blanket tarps and bought everyone cool collapsable little camp chairs (http://shop.alitedesigns.com/monarch-chair.html) for Christmas, but our camp-out became a sit-in-vigil watching over a severely injured Caleb post-motorcycle-accident.  So this year was a sweet redemption, to pull out the tents and chairs and to set up camp in two beautiful spots, a wild-life rich savannah and a cool forest mountain ledge.  This year for Christmas we gave our kids money to give away, and a kindle a piece.  After many years of all of us sharing two kindles, we decided to buy four more "paperwhite" devices.  I know it sounds a bit extravagant, but I have no regrets.  We all share the same amazon account so everyone could read the best of the books I had bought us over the last few months.  As a family we went through twenty books in those five days.  Reading, hiking, resting, viewing, appreciating.  Music and campfires and stories and time.

I HIGHLY recommend the Mukogodo Forest.  If you hate heights (and as a mom I admit to some anxiety) there are several other sites without death drop-offs.  And if you go, please mention us. If you can afford Ol Pejeta I also recommend the bush campsite do-it-yourself, or the Pelican House if you can share with another family. I probably corresponded with twenty tented camps and lodges looking for something we could afford.  There are many options that charge $250-$800 PER PERSON PER NIGHT, meaning thousands of dollars for our family.  I am not kidding.  Besides the camping, I found four lodges that were on the $30-$60 per person per night range.  They may have been nicer than Timau, but Timau was conveniently on the way between our two campouts.  The others were http://naromoruriverlodge.com/http://www.castleforestlodge.com/, and http://www.rhinowatchlodge.com/.  The Rhino Watch looked perhaps the classiest.

Very thankful for this taste of the timelessness and beauty and togetherness of Heaven.

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Christmas in Disguise

Christmas Eve at 6:30 am I was awakened by a 999 stat code page to ICU, where Gift had stopped breathing.  When I arrived he still had a thready rapid pulse, but that soon stopped.  He was essentially dead, and I wanted to cry, but instead did CPR and called for help.  We got him back, and he spent the day intubated on a machine for life support.  In retrospect he probably had respiratory depression from his post-op pain meds and is so marginal and slightly dehydrated that he went down fast.  He improved through the day, and Christmas morning I happily pulled out his tube.


This child is a miracle baby, and Christmas is a fight, and I am battle weary. I thought we had lost him, but over Christmas and Boxing day he opened his eyes, moved, cried.  We started feeding him.  I rejoiced.

Then this morning he had respiratory distress and got intubated by Erik again.

Here is a CS Lewis quote shared by George Mixon:

“The universe is at war, but not between two independent powers.  It was all created good by God, and went wrong.  It is a CIVIL war, a rebellion. We are living in a part of the universe occupied by the rebel. . . Enemy-occupied territory – that is what this world is. Christianity is the story of how the rightful king has landed, you might say landed in disguise, and is calling us all to take part in a great campaign of sabotage. . . Why is God landing in this enemy-occupied world in disguise and starting a sort of secret society to undermine the devil? Why is He not landing in force, invading it?  Is it that He is not strong enough?  Well, Christians think He is going to land in force; we do not know when. But we can guess why He is delaying. He wants to give us the chance of joining His side freely. . . [before He comes] without disguise. . . . It will be too late then to choose your side."

Christmas:  victory in disguise, the King lands as a vulnerable infant, and that is why Gift can be healed and live.  But not without a struggle.  So please keep praying for him.  After a very intense week of nonstop work and entertaining . . we are walking out the door in a few minutes to do a 5-day family camping trip.  But my heart is in the ICU and I really hope that prayers for Gift continue, and I find him turning the corner to life when I get back.

Meanwhile check the post below for our annual prayer/Christmas letter, and here are a few photos of the day until Scott has time to post his good ones. We had church and carols and a cinnamon pastry and a few presents and all the interns and a "motherless" family (because of travel) over for dinner, and lots of joy together.











We'll be off-line this week.  Merry Christmas.

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Myhre Merry Christmas letter

Merry Christmas from the Myhres!
Click HERE to download our annual Christmas missive...


Monday, December 23, 2013

Gift's surgery, lefsa, and the jumble of medicine and Christmas

The 23rd of December, Christmas Eve Eve . . . Caleb home last night, immediately bringing the ease and laughter of a completed family back to us after too many months of aching gap.  So thankful for these hardworking kids, and the way they value relationship, and the way they can keep perspective, can avoid buying in too far for things that don't last, can stay true to who they were made to be.  I can't remember why, but at one point in the car on the way back from the airport I was laughing like I haven't laughed in a long time.  This is their time, to connect with each other, to sleep, to eat Christmas cookies, to play the guitar, to cut out snowflakes and visit with friends.

And a lot of my heart wishes it was my time to do those things, too.  The strike has officially ended, but maternity and nursery are still bursting at the seams. Today was pretty nonstop.  A 30 week preemie, two severely jaundiced babies, rounding on our Paeds ward where there are no visitors to fill the gap anymore and trying to figure out the diagnoses and plans and who can go home for Christmas.

But the good news is, Gift was able to go for surgery, and seems quite stable so far post-op.  Due to a low platelet count he needed fresh blood in the theatre, and I just happened to match his type. That needle is big and blunt but it may be the most concrete way I can help my patients.  The real skills today came from Dr. Erik who was finally able to do the repair.


 And then after a day of labs and resuscitations and orders and calculations, home to make a steaming pile of lefsa and celebrate a traditional Norwegian white dinner and Advent reading with friends here.



Scott read the prayer his Grandfather used to say in Norwegian, and we ate cod and rice and coconut shrimp and vegetables in a cream sauce, polished off by both Australian and American cookies and one of my favorite Christmas books:  Papa Panov's Special Day.  Which reminds us that we meet Jesus now in those who are marginalized, needy, different, difficult, poor. In those who draw out compassion, in those whose gift is their weakness.  

Saturday, December 21, 2013

A Christmas Gift

For Christmas, I asked for hope.  Because it is hard to keep pushing 110% effort into small things that die.  And that's when Gift was admitted. He was born on the Kenyan coast with his intestines protruding from his abdominal wall.  This is a condition called gastroschisis, and as far as we know there have been only two survivors in Kenya.  One at Kenyatta and one here.  The exposed bowel gets infected, and something that should be fixable isn't.

Gift was taken to two other hospitals before being transported to Kijabe, where he arrived severely dehydrated on his 4th day of life, his bowel matted to a dirty dry guaze.  Our surgeons inserted a "silo", a sterile plastic bag with a coiled ring that slips under the skin and contains the bowel until it can be gently pushed back into an abdomen that did not grow big enough in utero.  We admitted him to the ICU for fluids and antibiotics and resuscitation and close monitoring.


And that's where he's been for ten days, fighting for his life. His little body has been overwhelmed by a serious bacterial infection in his blood, causing him to go into shock and bleed.  We've transfused and added the strongest combinations of antibiotics.  We've followed his blood pressure and his sodium level, measured his urine output, worried over his chest x-ray.  

And we've prayed, which I'm asking others to do now too.  He should have died, but he has held on.  At one point another doctor wrote in his file that it was time to call in the chaplains to comfort the parents as he was going to die.  But he didn't die, yet.  And with each day he's hung on that stubborn hope just takes hold.

He's his parents first child.  They journeyed a full day and hundreds of miles to get him to our care.  If he lives he would be only the third survivor of this condition in Kenya.  I know God can be glorified by life and by death.  But this time I'm asking for life.  It is my job; that's what I do, and though it breaks my heart too many times, I do believe Gift can be healed.

Please pray that tomorrow, Monday, his blood infection would be cleared enough for him to go into the theatre for surgery to close his abdomen, that he would survive that and be able to breath with his intestines back inside, and Gift would be God's gift to his parents and his medical/surgical team this Christmas.

On the first day of Christmas . . .

My God gave to me . . .

The FIRST GRADUATE from the post-ebola outpouring of funds to sponsor doctors in the wake of the loss of Dr. Jonah Kule.  Dr. Ammon Bwambale, a dear friend and man of God.
Two happy Myhres .. . Julia cutting the celebration pie made for Scott's happy news of passing his boards.  

Three tuneful carolers . . there were actually more but I felt awkward trying to photograph.  We went caroling on the Paeds ward one evening this week.  When we got to the Hark the Herald line that says "Light and life, to all He brings, risen with healing in his wings . . ", well, you have to cry or believe.  This is the place to sing that, with boldness or with trembling.  Much healing needed.  





Four strands of tree lights . . . Chinese imports to Uganda a couple years ago, that were wildly hypnotic and celebrated our first year with electricity from the grid.  I plugged them in this year and 2 of the 4 went POP!  SMOKE!  Severed the cord and blacked out the lights.  Frightening.  At least two still work.
FIVE in the FAMILY!

Luke is home!  Here he is by a lovely little tree we thought about harvesting, but it seemed illegal, probably planted by someone.  Instead we were able to cut our own tree in our yard this year.  We planted a row of them a couple years ago for this very purpose.  OK it is a bit spindly and sparse, but environmentally friendly to plant and harvest your own, right?  Here we are from start to finish:



And many other wonders of christmas, including:

Julia making a chocolate raspberry cake from a cousin's recipe

Starting on our annual puzzle, compliments of the Schubert family

Maternity Department winning the hospital's quality improvement honor!

The Christmas Tree on the Paeds ward always cheers me.

Great colleagues.

So thankful for visitors. This is Dr. Tina from NC.  Thanks to help, I've been able to bake and spend time with my kids!

Friends from Kijabe for a Christmas meal which must include chapatis and grilled meat and laughter and thankfulness for these people . . 

Lisa with shoes that light up and match the tree.  Made me happy.

And last, just for fun, a twin-yolk egg.  I have cracked thousands.  First time to find one.  Luke looked it up and the frequency is 0.3%.  Must be a good sign for the season.


Thursday, December 19, 2013

Passed!


Wooooohoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I (Scott) passed my Recertification Exam for the American Board of Family Medicine!
I'm a fully-certified Family Physician until 2023!!  Yay!

It's difficult to describe the burden that has been eased from my shoulders.  
It's been ten years since my last recertification exam.  Just to qualify to sit for this exam, there were hundreds of hours of "continuing medical education" requirements, on-line clinical simulations, and, of course, a $1200 fee which would be lost if I didn't pass.  And this is the same exam given to the 30 year olds just finishing their residencies in the USA.

Make no mistake about it, I am a highly functioning African doctor.  If you have malaria, dengue fever, schistosomiasis, cryptococcal meningitis or any of the other myriad infections associated with AIDS, or a baby in distress which needs surgical extraction… I can take good care of you.  But none of those things were covered in this 8 hour computerized exam.  Rather, I was pimped on diagnostic tests like d-dimer and BNP which I have never ordered, drilled on dozens of antidepressants I have never prescribed, and quizzed on medical problems which I never see in Africa (sarcoidosis?)… Not fair?  Well, yes, I'd say so.  

But when I saw this exam coming, in addition to laying out a brief study plan, I began to ask for prayer.

And this brings me to a moment of Advent reflection.  Bethany recommended an Advent devotional to us this year entitled Silence and Other Surprising Invitations of Advent by Enuma Okoro.  It's a daily devotional which looks only at the experience of longing, doubt, silence and seclusion of Zechariah and Elizabeth.  One of the first passages looks at Luke 1:10-13 where Zechariah enters the sanctuary… and behind him is a community praying.  The author stunningly captures the beauty and power of praying community…

Everyone understands the gravity and intensity of what it meant for the priest to enter God's presence.  Praying for one another can be a beautiful way of acknowledging the demands, perseverance, and vulnerability that authentic faith requires of us…

Zechariah approaches the Temple supported by a community of believers.  In an avoidable way he faces his task alone, coming before God alone.  But in powerful and mystery filled ways the prayers of the people outside the temple support Zechariah…

A believing community shoulders hope when circumstances seem hopeless.  A believing community speaks boldly into despair and longing and suggests that things do not have to remain as they are in the presence of a holy and imaginative God...

During Advent, as we wait for the fullness of God's promises in Christ Jesus, we are invited into humility and gentleness of spirit to whisper our longings to one another and to elicit a new depth of sharing with one another….Naming the ache of our yearnings is indeed faithful.  It opens wide the gift of receiving and embracing the prayers of others.

May we begin to look around and discern with wisdom the people in our midst with whom we can share this Advent invitation.  Who can help bear the weight of our longings, or whose longings can we help to bear, while still prayerfully hoping in the fullness of God's promises of abundant life?

So, I pause and thank the many of you who heard my whispered longing to be affirmed as a family physician.  
Thank you all for praying.
And I thank God for hearing your prayers.


Soli Deo Gloria.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

This fragile anchor: a thrill of hope

A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices . ..

I have been thinking about hope quite a bit, because it is a daily necessity for my job. And it is no small act of faith and the will to maintain hope, to renew the store of hope day by day. Hebrews calls hope a strong anchor that we must hold fast to.

To be a decent doctor requires one have hope that a patient will recover. When a mewling little blood-covered thin-skinned preemie is handed off to me to revive, I have to believe the baby has a chance to live as I work. When someone calls me to a code, or I decide to move a patient in to ICU who is slipping downward, I go into action with the hope they will improve. When I see brain-damaged kids in clinic who need adjustments to their seizure medications, I have to focus on the hope that they can learn and hear and speak and grow. When I admit a cute five-year-old, big-eyed and scared, with symptoms that could be cancer or TB, I have to hope for TB which is much easier to cure. Because I want them all to get better. And so many do. But not all. And sometimes the "not all" becomes a significant burden, a heaviness and weariness of loss and defeat. Last weekend I lost two children whom I had labored over intensely, whose mothers I had grown to care about. I had had hope, but those hopes were dashed, leaving flailing sobs and lifeless bodies.

If your child is sick, I am on your side, moving all the forces I can to ensure recovery. It takes a lot of energy. And I find that the energy is harder to generate without a strong sense of hope. The repeated losses erode optimism, make me cautious to invest my heart. Make hope hard. So that with the next one, I treat with a little more distance and doubt.

This is the reality, the context, of the holy night. Sin, error, and pining. Then something not done before, a God who is Spirit takes on flesh to enter the weary world, and throughout creation there is a rippling thrill of hope. Though Hebrews describes hope as an anchor, the faint thrill, the flutter of expectation, the almost-daring to yearn, rings more true. If this incarnation is fact, then there is nothing good which is beyond possibility. Impossible-odds recoveries, reconciled relationships, romance and progeny, feasting and fellowship and forgiveness, all move back into the realm of the probable.

So that the fragile little bodies with their fast heartbeats and cold hands become places where redemption can be seen, in real time.

I would like a thrill of hope for Christmas. A renewal of that dare-to-dream vision, that energy to push on.

The Right Setting for Christmas

Church was PACKED this morning because the national secondary school leaving exams are being marked by teachers from all over the nation AT KIJABE BOYS SCHOOL. I wonder if Kijabe's reputation as an enclave of holiness led to the hope that this would lessen chances of corruption. In Kenya you sometimes see signs that say "corruption free zone," which just goes to show you that the absence of such is noteworthy. I do believe in the spiritual nature of place; over time the presence of prayer makes some spots of ground more peace-inducing than others. But the fact that a hundred or so teachers would choose to come to church at 8:30 on Sunday morning probably bodes better for the hopes of transparency than the choice of venue.

Meanwhile, in Northern Kenya (Garissa) and in Nairobi (Eastleigh) explosions have led to deaths, terrorist acts designed to punish Kenya for involvement in Somalia. One was an IED in a bus, cowardly and cruel. Just now I got a US Embassy text warning that University of Nairobi students were rioting right down town . . "smoke in the air and rocks being thrown at cars " . . . However, lest we think of Kenya as inherently dangerous, we remember with sadness the one-year anniversary of school shootings in Newtown (near Luke at Yale) and the tragedy of the high school student who fired a gun in a school in Denver (near Caleb, but sadly also the school of one of our old friends and supporter's kids, who were present and shaken).

Also in church this morning, there were two announcements. First, we are instructed to bring our dogs tomorrow for rabies vaccination, because a rabid dog was reported in the area. Second, we were warned that the polio immunization campaign (Kenya is in alert mode due to cases imported from Somalia) is on hold due to the strike of the health workers. Rabies and polio, on our doorstep.

And speaking of strikes, in spite of the courts' declaration that the doctor/nurse strike is illegal, the health system remains crippled. Though I am thankfully off this weekend after a doozy last weekend, I've been in touch here and there. We're up to 34 babies in the nursery (designed for 18, and typically holding up to the low 20's), and we're being asked to make hard triage decisions. A 9 year old girl arrived with a femur fracture, still un-set a week later, because she had been in a hospital where no one was working. Every bed is filled, and every resource stretched.

And even the Kenyans are commenting on the weather, which is unseasonably wet and cold. We have had about ten minutes of sunshine ALL WEEK, I am not making this up, most of our clothes are on the porch trying to get dry in a fog. A recent New England Journal of Medicine paper noted that the number of weather-related aberrations and public health disasters had tripled since the 1980's. When the downpours here send rivers down the road, people begin to get nervous, remembering the landslides.

Corruption, bombs, riots, diseases, strikes, injustice, storms.

Just the right setting for Christmas, literally. Jesus was born into a time of political upheaval and danger, where the prevailing atmosphere made the longing for a Messiah more palpable. It is the people walking in darkness who see the light. At Kijabe on a Sunday afternoon in mid December, there is no veneer of tinsel and santa that obscures the raw reality of Christmas: the moment of change in the tide of the evil onslaught, the moment where God comes down into the fray. The tiny beginning of all things made new, of honesty, fairness, health, justice, compassion, peace for all people. Good news, which we must listen quietly to hear.

Friday, December 13, 2013

DUKE!!!


Julia got up with us at 6:30 and checked her Duke account, then emerged with the good news:  she was admitted early decision!  I am posting this in tribute of the CROWD of people who share the thanks for this event.  Truly the whole takes-a-village proverb is true for us.  We could never have reached the point of a third child accepted to University on our own.  First our prayer supporters who have kept us surrounded by grace for two decades.  A whole line of missionary teachers braved the spiders and malaria and heat and earthquakes to teach her to read, and spell (!), and sing, and add. She had brothers who passed down books, or who kept her on her toes and made sure she was safe in a very unsafe place. We had educationally-oriented team mates who took care of curriculum decisions.  Then when she was about 11 she transitioned to Christ School Bundibugyo where more teachers and coaches impacted her life, until we reached RVA mid-way through 9th grade (with a stellar interlude staring mom as the geometry teacher).  Here she has had mentors, sports coaches, disciplers, teachers, friends who have all encouraged her walk in faith.  When people from Bundibugyo look at our kids, they feel a part in the outcome, and that is just as it should be.  Julia is the person you want to be around: smart, pleasant, serving, persevering, responsible, and fun.  Way more so than we are, because of the influence of so many great people in her life.

Probably the most fun part of the day was the excitement her brothers showed:  they were genuinely thrilled for her, it was great to have that family phone-time of celebration!  And her grandmothers and aunts too.

Though we've known people from Duke over the years, it was not until we stopped by last Spring on our way down to visit family in Charlotte that Julia got a clear sense that this was the place for her.  She does not make decisions lightly.  We respected that assurance, and encouraged the early decision.  Duke has an overall acceptance rate of 5% (!!!) but applying early boosts that up to 25%.  This year they had record numbers of applicants, and took a smaller slice than ever.  We knew it was far from a sure thing, and trust that this is a door God opened for her to walk through.  They have given her a decent scholarship and some other forms of aid, which will help, though we are still working on the finances.  But most importantly, she'll be only a couple of hours from family.  Yeah!

Pray with us now for fellowship, good friends, mentors to respect, soccer, laughter, significant work that will bring out her gifts and bless the world.

Three down, one to go.